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So here goes. Another summer has reached us, another year has passed me by. I am twenty-five years old. I will be married in less than five months.
I remember seeing a meme or reddit/tumblr post explicating how the rate our cells die off and regenerate slows down once we turn 25. That 25 is the magic number in which we start dying. I never thought myself invincible; when I was younger I clearly recall seeing my mother in chronic pain and being thankful that simple tasks such as walking didn't tire me out. I think I perhaps took that for granted because I'm starting to feel the pain of adulthood now. 25 is the age when I developed SVT, and although I have had surgery to correct it, the heart issue is not the only one I'm facing. Infections, poorly balanced hormones. I get occasional lower back pain on a frequent basis. Cramps in my leg and knee. I feel as though my body has begun deteriorating. And it scares the shit out of me, to be honest. I know my weight is part of the problem; I've had several wake up calls concerning it. I can't describe how difficult it is to maintain the motivation for a health lifestyle. But summer is a new time. More time to do things. Hopefully I can accomplish such things.
In other news, my relationship with my alleged father has degenerated further into monosyllabic text messages. It frustrates me to no end seeing how little I actually matter to a parent who meant the world to me as a child. But I've slowly learned the difficult lesson to not place too much dependency on an absent family member's presence. I mourn over the relationship, that bond once shared, but dwelling on it will change nothing, except perhaps trigger a depressive episode. I've had to do the same thing to my twin sister, but I must soldier on.
Why. Is. ESO. Taking. So. Long. To. Update. Granted, I have not played for several months but I wanted to stretch my MMORPG muscles again. But last night, the download kept getting hung, despite attempting it 3 different times.
I'm rewatching Yugioh, the original series. I'm going to try to use Twitter more. I've considered linking my dreamwidth as my main blog since I'm more inclined to updating it. Overwatch Anniversary Event! Renaissance Faire tomorrow! Wedding planning this summer and watching my empty email hoping for responses.
Movies I've watched:
-A Quiet Place
-Avengers Infinity War (OMGGGGGG WHATTT FTW)
-Deadpool 2
Movies to watch:
-Han Solo -- I'm actually pretty ambivalent about this one. Mostly because I apparently have the personality of an old person now and abhor change (Harrison Ford is Han Solo and NO ONE ELSE), and also because I wish they would focus on new Star War stories and character. But I will still watch it!
I want to make a graphic novel. I wish I could draw.
I remember seeing a meme or reddit/tumblr post explicating how the rate our cells die off and regenerate slows down once we turn 25. That 25 is the magic number in which we start dying. I never thought myself invincible; when I was younger I clearly recall seeing my mother in chronic pain and being thankful that simple tasks such as walking didn't tire me out. I think I perhaps took that for granted because I'm starting to feel the pain of adulthood now. 25 is the age when I developed SVT, and although I have had surgery to correct it, the heart issue is not the only one I'm facing. Infections, poorly balanced hormones. I get occasional lower back pain on a frequent basis. Cramps in my leg and knee. I feel as though my body has begun deteriorating. And it scares the shit out of me, to be honest. I know my weight is part of the problem; I've had several wake up calls concerning it. I can't describe how difficult it is to maintain the motivation for a health lifestyle. But summer is a new time. More time to do things. Hopefully I can accomplish such things.
In other news, my relationship with my alleged father has degenerated further into monosyllabic text messages. It frustrates me to no end seeing how little I actually matter to a parent who meant the world to me as a child. But I've slowly learned the difficult lesson to not place too much dependency on an absent family member's presence. I mourn over the relationship, that bond once shared, but dwelling on it will change nothing, except perhaps trigger a depressive episode. I've had to do the same thing to my twin sister, but I must soldier on.
Why. Is. ESO. Taking. So. Long. To. Update. Granted, I have not played for several months but I wanted to stretch my MMORPG muscles again. But last night, the download kept getting hung, despite attempting it 3 different times.
I'm rewatching Yugioh, the original series. I'm going to try to use Twitter more. I've considered linking my dreamwidth as my main blog since I'm more inclined to updating it. Overwatch Anniversary Event! Renaissance Faire tomorrow! Wedding planning this summer and watching my empty email hoping for responses.
Movies I've watched:
-A Quiet Place
-Avengers Infinity War (OMGGGGGG WHATTT FTW)
-Deadpool 2
Movies to watch:
-Han Solo -- I'm actually pretty ambivalent about this one. Mostly because I apparently have the personality of an old person now and abhor change (Harrison Ford is Han Solo and NO ONE ELSE), and also because I wish they would focus on new Star War stories and character. But I will still watch it!
I want to make a graphic novel. I wish I could draw.
